When You Have Self-Doubt – My Meltdown With Marie Diamond

We all have those moments when we question our sanity as entrepreneurs. We question whether we’re following the right path, have the right customers, and most importantly, whether we’re making a difference.

My moment came recently at an amazing event I attended in Vancouver called Business Excellence. Have you ever been to one of these events where there are multiple speakers and there was “the one” that you really resonated with? For me, that speaker was Marie Diamond.

If you don’t know Marie, she is a Feng Shui Master, an energy expert and one of the stars of the movie “The Secret”. Interestingly, there were a couple of other speakers from The Secret, including John Gray of Men Are From Mars and Women are From Venus and Jack Canfield of the Chicken Soup for the Soul books, and while they were amazing, it was Marie that totally took me by surprise.

Marie Diamond is disarming in that she seems like anyone in the audience. She’s a wonderful speaker and connects heartfully with the audience, but she’s not polished and slick. I hope she always stays that way. The charm of Marie is in her approach. She is straightforward and presents in a way that is simple, but her concepts are quite profound.

As a Feng Shui master, Marie taught us that there are three things that make up Feng Shui, with the third one being our physical space. The audience was largely made up of businesspeople, so Marie chose to speak about people’s offices. She talked about things like which direction to place your desk, what types of artwork to hang on the wall, and of course, clutter.

Marie Diamond

Then, she had each of us find a partner to perform and exercise. That’s when it got weird for me. The two people on either side of me immediately turned the opposite way to partner up with the person beside them. I thought, no problem, I’ll just step outside my row and find another partner. I walked around the entire room for the whole exercise and didn’t find anyone that was free to do the exercise with. All of a sudden, I had these overwhelming feelings of being alone – and I was in a room of 600 people!

What happened was that it reinforced a feeling that has come up for me recently. I have been traveling for 2 months and have discovered that traveling can be a bit lonely. Oh, sure you meet wonderful people on the road, but family and friends are far away.

The biggest realization I got from Marie’s talk was that I don’t have a physical space that I call an office right now. For that matter, I don’t have a home, as I have put all of my belongings in storage to travel around the world for 6 months. I am in a different location every 3 to 6 weeks so how does that affect my Feng Shui??

I started to doubt whether I was doing the right thing. That self-doubt monster is vicious! I thought about the next few months of travel and whether I should cancel and settle into a location. I thought about whether it was possible to grow my business on the road. I thought about the possibilities of meeting new people vs. having a permanent address.

The next day, I saw Marie was at the event. I summoned up the courage to go talk to her. I started to ask her the questions… and then… I had a bit of a meltdown. At first, I was so embarrassed. I am so not that person that is crying in the corner with the experts, but there I was with one of the stars of The Secret and 600 of our fellow attendees.

Marie was absolutely amazing! She listened to my story and embraced me into a large hug. Once I was composed, she continued. She told me that she completely understood my situation as she had once done the same thing, only she was on the road for a whole year traveling.

Then Marie gave me some great and profound advice. First, she reminded me that our physical space accounts for only one-third of the Feng Shui equation. Second, she agreed with my idea that perhaps I was meant to influence the Feng Shui in many different locations over the next while. Lastly, she advised me to get some things that are important to me to use as anchors. I would take these items with me on the road and set them up in my workspace wherever I am, while still paying attention to the basic Feng Shui principles such as not having my back to the door.

Marie assured me that this would be just as powerful as any of the offices that she has visited and advised. In truth, since I have been traveling, my business has increased. I don’t know why I doubted myself, but if you have the self-doubt monster visit, call in the experts. We all need that boost and for me, it reinforced that I was doing the right thing.

I am happily Feng Shui-ing my “road-office” and have extreme gratitude for Marie Diamond and her wisdom and that she took the time to spend with me.